Dear Diary - 07.25.17


Dear Diary,

It's been a while since I've reached out, and I'm sorry.

Life has a way of giving us involuntary breaks from things that we need breaks from, without warning...

Anyway, I'm here now; at least pieces of me are here. No,no, I'm not broken. I mean, okay I was.....we can talk about that later. 

But I'm fine. I'm still in "pieces" because I'm polishing up, and refining the pieces of me before I glue them all back together.  

Apparently I've grown up. Or at least the process has begun. I'm 30 this year. I know. Crazy. 

No, I didn't end up getting married or having all those kids like I said I would; I told him no... And no, I didn't become an actress or a singer either. I ended up leaving the program after my third year and coming home.

Oh! I did finally meet my dad though. That was interesting. We chat every now and again. It's not a perfect relationship, but I guess we're working on it. 

I also cut off all my hair and lived in China for a year. China...grew me in ways I didn't even know were humanly possible. I'm still adjusting to being back in the West. 

Love has been good to me. I've been hurt, a lot, but I've also loved just as much, and have no regrets. I'm happily single now, but I think I may be ready to mingle... a bit.

So yes, I guess you can say things have changed; for the better, though. Honest. I am stronger. Smarter. Healthier, and happier. We have so much to catch up on. 

Until next time, my friend.